I must be crazy- but its YOU!

Your on my mind, 

no matter the time or the day, 

there should be no reason, 

why you linger in my thoughts and sway. 

the feeling is, 

you may think of me, 

but i wish you tried a little harder, 

i have to distract myself, 

cause the thought of you, 

makes me believe, 

youwere someone i wanted to be with. 

Even if i wanted, 

i cannot be with you, 

and thats what sucks the most, 

even to tell you I Love you,

whats the point, 

for your on 2 feet and me on wheels. 

Love does conquer all, 

but not society, 

and there is a chance darling, your in his arms tonite. 

I would want to tell you that I love you, 

and not because I want something from you, 

Its to tell you there may be a moment in time - 

you will be in a place when all falls 

- and you my Love - were in my head all the time no doubt. 

Wish you were here

There was something wrong
in the air i felt it,
There was this unsettling vibe
and may be you were here but wanted to be somewhere else.

A good friend indeed
is all thats said
but sometimes its the
Little actions which make the dent

I can see this coming to an end,
Your just not the same
Theres is a part of you
I can feel which is just dormant or dead

 You were never just a fling or a girlfriend
never someone I ever thought of anything
but it was in the way you acted
I knew you were always my honest friend.

and maybe this word has been replaced
in your world,
Your taking precautions
not be hurt
You have pictured this in a million ways
and found no outcome just haze

I am 100% sure theres something
on your mind
each time we meet I can feel it
more..
Really wish you woudl just speak and let us know
May be there will be not much we can do,
To change it but sure we can be with you and help you through it

Its come to a point, I must say
I wish you were here,
where I am searching for the person
who would laugh so loud it made a room smile with her.

..words are all i have

I have written this a million times in ink,
every line re -read twice,
Every thought thats running in my mind,
but it always lands up at you.

I dont know what it is,
but your the first thought each morning.
As my close my eyes, I wish you good night,
in my own cosmic way.

You do not know how much I care,
as actions this time have played the games of fair share.
Being with you, is something out of reach.

It hurts that I know I have no chance here,
And I know this time is not mine.
even if i cannonball into the water,

Your the girl, that made me feel different,
The very reason, I woke up, to greet a morning,
Just to see you.
You did not even know I existed,

A message, I sent,
with every ounce of confidence i had,
and told you "to Say Something", as my heart raced.

I have been told,
that you only want, what you cant have,
But what if, its something more that,
Too complex right now to understand.

Its crazy drawing these conclusions out of thin air.
I tried not be some guy, who had a crush on you..
and thats alright, cause in my heart I know, i am not,

Till seasons change, and oceans run dry,
Till the sun dims, you know me, I guess.
All I wanted to show you, is that "you can find the good in everybody, if you just give them a chance. The benefit of the doubt.
Sometimes, people disappoint you ( must I even explain here).
Sometimes they surprise you. But you never really get to know them…until you listen for what’s in their hearts and that’s what I wanted to do for you."

Small

I am feeling very small and belittled by a former organization. They continuously are harassing me by calling me and on the fact of playing with my emotions drawing information out of me inspire of me continuously telling them to speak with my lawyer.

I am feeling threathed by them as they know where I stay. I am loosing my mental peace and the ability to make descisons.
They are causing mental trauma on me by mind games and politics.

They are calling me at odd hours and abusing me calling me a prostitute and damaging my self confidence. I am under high diress and already seeking medical assistance.
My health and current situation both financial and mental restricts me from a proper treatment and so I mediate but due to their contious torture of words I am not able to concentrate on my daily routine of exercise and other activities that will help me walk.