..words are all i have

I have written this a million times in ink,
every line re -read twice,
Every thought thats running in my mind,
but it always lands up at you.

I dont know what it is,
but your the first thought each morning.
As my close my eyes, I wish you good night,
in my own cosmic way.

You do not know how much I care,
as actions this time have played the games of fair share.
Being with you, is something out of reach.

It hurts that I know I have no chance here,
And I know this time is not mine.
even if i cannonball into the water,

Your the girl, that made me feel different,
The very reason, I woke up, to greet a morning,
Just to see you.
You did not even know I existed,

A message, I sent,
with every ounce of confidence i had,
and told you "to Say Something", as my heart raced.

I have been told,
that you only want, what you cant have,
But what if, its something more that,
Too complex right now to understand.

Its crazy drawing these conclusions out of thin air.
I tried not be some guy, who had a crush on you..
and thats alright, cause in my heart I know, i am not,

Till seasons change, and oceans run dry,
Till the sun dims, you know me, I guess.
All I wanted to show you, is that "you can find the good in everybody, if you just give them a chance. The benefit of the doubt.
Sometimes, people disappoint you ( must I even explain here).
Sometimes they surprise you. But you never really get to know them…until you listen for what’s in their hearts and that’s what I wanted to do for you."